I have been writing some thoughts down, but I have nothing to share just yet. I got to organize those thoughts better. In the meantime, I'll share with you some YouTube clips of old dos games. Games that I used to play for hours. I hope these clips will bring up some fun memories for some of you. How many of these games do you remember?
Just a thought: Why is it amazing to people when a child does something as well as, or loves something as much as one of their parents?! If it's drawing, painting, playing an instrument... Why do people get excited when a child looks like one of the parents?! "awww, she has your eyes." Wow, really? This whole nature and evolution thing is amazing. Isn't this how things work? We are supposed to be like our parents, what's so surprising here? I'm not trying to mock anyone. I'm honestly trying to understand because I am confused and a little frustrated that I can't feel and get excited like others do.
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So it's been tough since I moved back to Israel. My left arm is bugging me a lot, and is limiting me like never before. It hurts just to carry my arm around. It hurts when I get up from a chair, when I put on a shirt, or even when I roll in bed. I wake up more physically tired than when I went to sleep. It's as if I slept on the floor. I take some pain pills when I wake up. But it takes about an hour till they kick in, and even then, the pills don't always make all the pain go away. I'm limited and very dependable on others. I'm stuck at home most of the day, and when I go out it is mostly to some doctor appointment. I thought about it the other day, and I think that if I add up all the days I've been to some doctor appointment and other hospital visits since I was born they will add up to a whole year. Just this summer alone, with all the chemotherapy rounds and other appointments I probably spent over 6 weeks in hospitals. Some of you who work all day, or go to school might say "I would love to have a month off just to sit at home" but you're not thinking it through. Imagine being home all day for 30 days. Not 30 days where you're free to go out, travel, and have fun. No. 30 days of just laying around at home. Not that fun trust me. This physical deterioration of my left arm and it's consequences are affecting my mental state negatively. The solution is to step out of the house more. To go out, to see people, but it's hard to even get myself to step out. I was able to step out yesterday to see a live concert at the local pub with my twin cousins. Maor Cohen and Peter Rut performed together. It was a very good show!
Somehow I was also able to see the Superbowl. Here in Israel it started at 1:30 in the morning. I was able to take a long nap during the day so that I'll be able to stay up for the entire game. They showed it on a big screen in the local pub. They served drinks and pizza all night. By the end of the game I think it was almost 6:00 in the morning, I was very tired and since the Niners lost I was able to easily fall asleep. It was an annoying lost for the best team in the league. And by "for" I do not mean "to the best team." That's right, even though the 49ers lost the most important game, they're still the best in my book, and probably by most analysts. It was an annoying lost because they didn't show up for the first half of the game. I've never seen the defense miss so many tackles. Oh well, on to next year. Which I think will be tough because all we will be waiting for is the Superbowl...